FRAGILE STATE

 FRAGILE STATE

An emotional wreckage

Derailed  from my good intentions

Woke up crying again

But still have to put on a brave face

Nah

It’s just so much easier to stay in and hide

Stop listening to all the BS and the lies

My head is aching

My teeth echo in my face

Words get stuck in my throat

But you’d never know

I keep on smiling through the pain

Yet in my mind

Im on an unbridled journey

Travelling back in time

Processing remnants of the past

While simultaneously keeping up appearances

Just to make your life easier

You just never know

What someone is going through

Accumulated blows eventually wear you down

Not once

Not twice

It could come from the most unexpected place

But it was the one seemingly insidious comment

That broke the horse’s back.

An attack

On my fragility

No longer can I keep up with the onslaught of hostility

Wading through the deep undercurrent of 

blame

and

shame

I’m so tired