EMPTY FRAMES

 EMPTY FRAMES

Looking around my bare walls

It's a dirty white blank canvass

No pictures of my babies

No smiling family portraits

No body language on display

Nothing that would give away

What was really going on behind closed doors

The first thing I thought I should get

Was a certificate of accomplishment

Something that shows the world
 how good am I !

that for so many years I could lie

How brilliant I must be that I could fool the world

And keep smiling through gritted teeth

When slowly I was dying inside.

I’d hang it in one of those gaudy gold frames

Only problem

I haven’t been able to come up with a fancy name

That adequately describes exactly what I do,

the word “Stay at home Mum” always gets met

with a look and tone of total disdain

But guess what

I am good enough

I always was!

The most honorable job in the world to me

I even considered stealing the title

“Domestic Goddess”

But that one’s been so overused it seems,

and fallen out of favor,

because, even the most accomplished and luscious Goddess

has fallen into the clutches of being abused and publicly degraded

her private story is now what feeds the masses hungry desire.

Those accusing fingers and hands around throats

that demonize  women who don’t deal with their dirty laundry

who instead prefer to  cover it all up with tempting  smiles

and midnight snacks

a little pinch here

and a good  measure of generosity there,

it always gets thrown back in your face it seems

when trying to clean up the mess you leave

in your kitchen cupboards and closets.

I think a big certificate would look great displayed on my wall

Just to remind the whole world

How accomplished I have become

At figuring out how to see past other peoples deceptions

And false projections

Their passive aggressions

All designed to tell me that the life I lead

Is not acceptable to them

Nothing I chose about my life was right it seems

And its their bloody right

To question and demonize me,

But never ever  to my face…

Im sure they think that they figured out how to put me in my place.

5th December 2013